I finally have the chance to go to bed at a decent hour, but I have so much God has placed on my heart that I just want to share to talk about it. So, wow... God has been doing amazing things lately, to say the least. Tonight Cru set up a prayer journey in Burnam basement... it was exactly what I needed and the scriptures that were provided just really fed me with what I have been lacking lately.

There were seven stations set up-- Reflection, confession, adoration, forgiveness, supplication, intercession and repentance. The station that most spoke to me was the one on supplication. It just talked about taking our needs and requests to God in prayer. One thing that really spoke to me was when I read, that instead of trusting God with our burdens and needs, we choose to worry and worry robs us of the life Christ wants to give us. When I read that I just praised the Lord, because that sentence pegged exactly what I have been feeling for the past couple weeks. I have felt so burdened with all my pridefulness, jealousy and lack of trust in giving God complete control of my decisions and life. Right then and there, I gave my grades for this semester, my worry about a job this summer,the GRE, Haiti, and a private struggle, to God. It felt so good to finally trust Him enough to entrust all my worries to Him. After reading Luke 12: 22-31, I was able to finally believe God wants amazing things for my life and He will give me the desires of my heart if I am faithful to Him. I always say things that I believe, but cannot completely surrender to God because I am selfish and what things to go my way...slowly and surely I am learning that I want to be patient and wait for what path God is going to choose for me, because His path is so much better than what I could choose for myself. It is when letting go of my impatient and controlling attitude, God will begin to transform me from the inside out. I may not have completely surrendered everything to Him just yet, but tonight was a great beginning. With His constant help and through prayer I will continue to let Him mold me and use me... and hopefully, through continually speaking this truth into my life I will change and surrender all my worries to Him, because He cares for us. "Seek first His kingdom, and all these things shall be added unto you."

Thank you Lord for being a prime role model who exemplified a life I will continually strive for...