The Lord blesses us all with different giftings and anointings. I have recently discovered that I have this ability to see others the way Jesus sees them. It's incredible. It helps me understand how others have a difficult time befriending and loving people that I am drawn to. I understand that it is not easy. I understand that sometimes I will befriend people that I have a difficult time being around. Nonetheless, in the back of my mind I see them how Christ sees them.
It is very enlightening to recently discover that over the years certain people I have come in contact with I have tried to "fix." I felt responsible for the state they were in, and instead of trusting God enough to take care of it, I thought I could. Haha, yes, you know how this story ends... I cannot fix anything. I cannot even fix myself. I don't know why I thought I could, but for some reason I saw these people in a different light. I saw them and created them (in my mind) into the person that I thought Jesus saw them as. I placed unrealistic expectations on them. I placed unrealistic expectations on myself at times, instead of just handing the reigns over to God to take care of me or my situation.
What a freeing realization. I am not in control of my life. My life and future are in the hands of someone that died for me. I am in the hands of someone who is the epitomy of love and grace. How captivating. How life-altering. How incredible.
Today I spoke with two of my professors about the equine minor they are trying to start at EKU. I am really excited about them getting this off the ground. They even suggested that I should get my OTD and come back and run the program--whoa. I have so many future visions and goals swirling in my head right now I can barely wrap my mind around them. However, it is exciting to see where this opportunity is headed and interestingly exciting to perhaps come back to EKU, a place I never envisioned returning...who knows. I have a feeling the next few years of my life aren't going to be at all what I expect.
I also talked with my professors about translating my credentials as an OT to international work, where I could possibly start a therapeutic riding program with women/children that have come from slavery/abuse. They said there is great potential and gave me several leads--I am just gushing with emotions right now about all that happened today.
Another wonderfully eventful day comes to a close...yoga and bed. :)
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